I haven't updated in forever. I just never know what to write or say. The other day Sarah said something that really made me think. She said You have changed so much to make Chris happy but has Chris changed for you? I mean they are little things like my eating habbits, and when we are working out we listen to his music and never mine. And the way I think about things, and a lot of other things. Next weekend we are going to Lake Compounce. I love Chris with all my heart, and I know he loves me too. But sometimes I really stop and think is there any one else there for me? I have no idea why I updated.